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Devanagarintlem Romi lipiantor korpi: Óscar de Noronha
Thodde lok zolmak ietnach almpeddearxe ietat. He lok astat jevnnak mar ani dhortorek bhar mhonnttat polle tosle…. Te kam’dhondo kãi korinat. Tori punn tanchem pott bhorta. Bekar asa mhunn khobor astana tachem logn zata. Tankam bhurgim zatat. Bhurgim xiktat, vhodd zatat. Oxem toren dixtt lagsarko tancho sonvsarui bin zata. Ek poiso zoddi nastanam. Koso to Devakuch khobor! Zonn eke chonchik Devan chorov ghotto dil’lo asta khoim! Toslo to chorov, kãi hat-pãi haloi nastana jea lokamchea thonddant apxinch poddta te lok kitle sukhi! Ani thoddo lok mormorsor kam’ kortat, punn tea lokank dhod ek jevonn susegad bosun jevonk mellna. Kortele kitem? Kormacheo goti ani muien gil’lo khoim hoti, tosleantli khobor!
Toslea almpeddear monxam bhitorlo ek monis mhollear Nillu. Horxim tagelem nanv Nilkant punn Gõykarache nanvanchi vidornam korche sonvoiek lagun to zalo Nillu. Ani Nillu-le avoi-bapui gorib axil’lean soglle taka Nilluch mhonnunk lagle. Zantte-nentte, soglleancho to Nillu axil’lo. Nillu zor ekadrea bhattkarager zolmak ail’lo zalear Nillubab zatlo axil’lo. Ghoddie to Portugez xikil’lo ani khõiui empregad bin axil’lo zalearui to Nillubab zavpacho. Punn to zalo almpeddear ani Nillu to Nilluch ul’lo.
Nillu chear choliamvelo cholo. Mhunn avoi-bapailo khub’ apurbaiecho. Tagelea avoi-bapaili goribkaiechi poristiti asun legit tannim taka laddan vaddoilo. Soglleank ukddea tanddlachem xit ani ho apurbaiecho ekloch put mhunn haka barik tanddlachem xit. Avoi-bapain kel’li tachi sovõi il’li legit vochunk nam. Tachi bail taka barik tandllachem xit tache purtench korun vaddtali.
Nillu nanvapramann nilloch. Mhollear kallokitt. Ghos koso. Tangelem kens legit thondda mukhar matxe dhove distale, hache velean polloiat. Taddmadd koso lambuch lamb. Angan dhondio naslo tori barikui bin nhoi. Niktto valo nesoun ani hatant dhanddo diun, kor’kor’avazacheo vhanno ghalun taka khõicheai sanvari ponda ubo kel’lo zalear lok taka devcharuch mhonttale axil’le. Thond chovkonni. Chovkonni chereacher il’lixi khaddki. Sokoilo vhontt dantani chabun chabun sodanch thambddo gunj zaun astalo. Nillulo vhontt jitlo chodd thambddo, titleo tachekodden hun’hunit gozali asat mhunn somzuchem. Soglleant sobit axil’le tagele dolle. Chokchokit toxe dhoveful. Tantunt sodanch bhurgeancho koso gollgollit nirmoll hanso. Dantui tagele dhoveful. Mogre kolle koxe. Eke vollsorent gunthil’le. Atam zantto zal’lean tagele kens sap dhove zaleat. Ani fottochi negative koso to dista.
Hanvem Nilluk lhan astana pollel’lo toso to asa. Tantunt il’loi forok nam. Fokot kes pikleat. Kes tache matxe lamb-chipchipit tel laun to te porte volloita. Kasatto marun nexil’lem, nill ghalun nillsar dhovem kel’lem tambddea kanttachem puddvem. Tacher khomis. Hem khomis puddvea bhitor ani voir judi oso tagelo bhes. Tachekodden ek Raleigh saikol axil’li. Ho lamb, ti matxi mhotvi. To saikolicher bostalo tem pollovpasarkem. Saikoli poros paim lamb zal’lean te dhomprakodden katkonant dhoddun taka pedalam marchim poddtalim. Saikol choloitanam judi varo bhorun pankhatto koxi foddfoddtali. Ani pãiakodden puddveacho xev varem bhorun furfurtalo. To saikol choloitana rodamcho ani puddveachea forforpacho ek comik avaz ietalo.
Nillule dant dhoveful’ axil’lean tache dost tachi moskori kortale. ‘Makodchap dantmanjnan haka aple jahirati khatir apoun vhorunk zai axil’lo. Poilim hagele dant dantmanjan lavun kalle kalle dakhoile mhonntokoch pod’dobhor kainch dischem nam. Fokot monxachi ek akrtai distoli. Ani magir to dant dhuta tem dakhouchem mhonntokoch dhul’le dhoveful’ chokchokit dant’ – oxem te fokannanim mhonntale.
Nillu lhan astana konnetori bhavixia sangil’lem khõi. Ho cholo zomnir ken’nach cholcho na, sodanch vahanantlean bhonvtolo. Khõichea tori eka sinemant pollel’lem: osoch ek niktoch zolmol’lo bhurgo asta. Jyotixi bhavixia kortat, hagelo ixariacher vahana dhanvtolim mhunn! Avoi-bapui khub khuxi zatat, choleachi khub apurbai kortat. Rokddoch taka zantto zal’lo dakhoila. Ani to zal’lo asta ek traffic polis. Tagelea ixariacher gaddio dhanvtat. Tannem rav mhonttokich gaddio ravtat.
Nillu-lem bhavixia oxech toren khorem zal’lem. To vahanantlean bhonvtalo. Ektor to saikolicher astalo. Saikolicher na ten’na konnache tori gaddient astalo. Choddxa bhattkarank to zai axil’lo; ektor tankam ganvaveleo gozali Nillukoddlean somzotaleo. Na-zalear apleo khobri, aplim vhoddponnam dusreakodden pavovpak tankam Nillucho upeog zatalo ani magir he bhattkar aple vangdda aplea mezar taka vaddtale.
Punn ek, jevle uprant Nillu kennach konnager ravi naxil’lo. Bail vatt polletoli, jevle bogor tixttot ravtali oxem sangun to bhattkarale gaddient bosun bod’dod ghora ietalo, ani susegad tannun ditalo.
Nillu sokallim cha ghevn zo bhair sortalo, to Gopi-lea shopar vetalo.Gopi Nillu-lo dost. Dogui vangddach xiktale. Dogui vangddach xalla chukovn chinche bottam, boram, toram paddunk vetale. Dogui vangddach Saraswati pujnak boria-boria ghorantlea porsamnim vochun borim-borim fulam chorun haddtale. Ani dogui vangddach sigar oddunk xikil’le. Gopin magir aplea bapaili kens kap’pachi kola xikun ghetli. Ani bapailem shop to cholovpak laglo.
Nilluk bapain ghor soddun kãi dovorlem na. Nilluk oddi-oddchonnik Gopich upkara poddtalo. Mhunn sokallim cha piun Nillu bhair sortalo to bod’dod Gopilea shopar ietalo. Thõi taka akh’khea Ponnjent kal kitem kitem ghoddlem tachi khobor melltali. Kal konnager kitem zalem, khõichi choli konnaborabor firta, konnalea ghorant zogddim zalim, khõichea ghova-bhailank poddna, kal konn konnak ghevun khõichea sinemak ghel’lo, voinibaien novea modelachim kanknnam kelim, tantunt tika xettin kitlem fottoilem, bi soglleo gozali tantunt astaleo. Osleo thoddeoxeo legit gozali taka mell’lear puro. Magir tea gozalink mitt, mirsang, mosalo lavn teo ruchik koso korcheo hem Nilluk xikovpachi goroz naxil’li.
Ponnjechea bhattkaramlea ghoranim Nilluchi bhumika Sanskrut nattkantlea vidushkachi astali. Hea bhattkarank hansovpachem, tanche dosh tankam hansot sangpachem, khõiche-i bai-baiechem na zalear tai-baiechem kam moneani korpachem, Satianarainachi puja zali zalear chukonastanam soglleank prasad vanttpachem kam’ Nillu bes borem kortalo. Prasadacho donno konnak chukonaxil’lo ani Nillun dilebogor ekaporos chodd donnem konnak mellonaxil’le. Samradhna asot zalear Nillu vaddunk fuddem. Kitem-i randil’lem unnem zait zalear tem xem-pon’nas lokank polloun vaddpachem kam’ Nillu bes borem kortalo. To top bhorun gheun ietalo ani zonn ekleak vichartalo, “Tuka zai? Naka nhoi?” Oxem apunnuch mhonnun, zai naka hachi vatt pollenastanam fuddem vetalo.
Sokallim dha-ank sumar Nillu nusteachea bazarant pasoi marun ietalo. Konn nustekan kitem nustem ghevun khõi boslea hem to herun dovorun doriadeger konna-i vangdda zankddam marit ubo ravtalo. Title mhonnsor khõichoi tori bhattkar gaddi ghevun nustem vhorunk ietalo.
‘Kitem Sada-baab! Aiz nustem vhorunk tum aila? Rav, rav! Tu denv’ naka. Hanv astana tum kiteak husko korta? Tum hangach rav. Hanv tuje khatir nustem ghevun ieta.’
Oxem mhonnun Nillu nustem ghevun ietalo. Magir Nillun sangil’lem poixe bhattkar ditalo. Ani Nillu panch dha rupia unnem korun te nusteakanik ditalo. Ani uril’lea poixanchem apnna khatir nustem ghevun ghora vetalo.
Deddak sumar to ghora pavtalo. Bail babddi xit bi korun ho nustem ghevun ietlo mhunn vatt polletali. Nustem uzravun tachem humonn zatasor Nillu nhanvunk vetalo. Bhãichea udkacheo panch-sov kollxe angar votun ang puxit bhitor ietalo. Bailen mirio kaddun dovril’lem puddvem nestalo. Puddveacho ek xev khandar udovn tulloxik udok ghaltalo. Ani magir bailen vaddun dovril’lem barik thandllachem xit jevunk bostalo.
Nilluli bail sadi axil’li. Hanstea mukhachi, addve kens volloun supare iedo ambaddo ghaltali. Tigelea hea ambaddeacher ful na oxem kennach zalemna. Logn korun haddil’li ten’na tigelo ambaddo nal’la iedo zatalo. Ghovak Dev somzun ti Nillulo sonvsar kortali. Konnaleo gozddeo xivun ditali, lonnchim korun, papod korun viktali. Divalle, chovthik vojim dhaddunk avoiank adhar kori. Aianom, stradhdhank sovaixinn mhunn rav. He bhaxen koxtt korun, konna mukhar hat kori nastona, ghovalo sonvsar choloitali. Nillulea avoi-bapai fattlean barik thanddllachea xitache Nilluche laad bailenuch puroile. Goddie Nilluli bail ghovale chod laad kortali dekhun Nillu kosloch kamdhondo kori naslo zanv-ie.
Hanvem poilinch sanglam, Nillu bhattkaramlo viduxok axil’lo mhunn. Sadabab ho Ponnjecho ek bhattkar. Hea bhattkarak xembor khepe mutunk vochpachi sovõi axil’li. Nillun ek khepe taka vicharlem: “Sada-bab, tuji voj kutriachi kai kitem?”
“Kiteak re”?”
“Na! Tum portu-portun mutunk veta mhunn vicharlem.”
Sada-bablea choleak Apa Kamotichi choli khubuch manil’li. Punn Sada-bab ani Apa Kamat bhitorlean ekamekale dusman, ten’na soirik zullpak kotinn axil’lem. Sada-babalea cholean apli avodd aple avoik sangli. Avoik-vhonibaik choli posont axil’li. Tinnem kitem korchem? Tinnem Nilluk afvhonno dhaddlo. Taka soglli gozal sangli. Nillun tika sanglem, “Vhonibai, tum bhienv naka. Hanv kitem korpachem tem dist kortam.” Nillu gelo thet Apa Kamotiger. Apa Kamat ani tageli bail bi astani Nillun mhollem, “Kitem, choliele laddu atam kenna ditlim tumi?”
“Are, hanvui tench mhunntam. Cholielem logn korunk zai. Nillu, tum boro-so bhurgo suchoi pollov-ia.” – Apa Kamotili bail.
“Sadababalo cholo asa nhoi? Kai boro xikil’lla sovril’lo.”
“Tu sarko asa mure? Sadabab baab kitem mhoje choliek sun korun ghetlo? Amche sombondh tuka khobor nat?” – Apa Kamat.
“Punn tu vochun Sada-babak vichar tori! Vicharunk kitem poixe poddtat vhoi?” – Nillu
“Hanvoi tench mhonntam. Choli borea ghorant poddtoli ani tumchi dusmankaiui somptoli.”
Magir Apa Kamat khoinchenuch ek dis Nillu vangdda Sada-babager gelo. Tannem utor ghalem. Ani Apa Kamoti sarko monis matso nomtem ghevun aplea dharant aila hem polloun Sada-babanui khuxalbhorit zavun Apa Kamotinle choliek sun korun ghetli.
Lhanponnant amkam Nillu avoddtalo. Kiteak, to tosleoch gozali sangtalo. Ami bhurgim thondd uktem korun tageleo khobri aikotalim. To sangi –
“Zanna mugo, lhan astana hanv Pednea ajieger gel’lom. Tenna light bin naxil’li. Ani Pednea vochunk akho dis lagtalo. Ghorant ponntteo na zalear petrolache kovde astale. Hanv ailam mhunn ajien vodde korpak ghetle. Oxi randon, randni samkar aji boslea. Randni kuxik hanv boslam. Aji vodde tollta. Randche kuddint ek il’lexem zonel. Randta astana chodd zal’lem udok bin aji hea zonelantlean bhair uddoitali … zalear… aji vodde tolltali. Itlean boddiebhaxen ek itlo hat tea zonelantlean bhitor sorlo. Fattofat avaz ailo. ‘Mhaka ek voddo di ge!’ Aji distuch vollkoli konnacho to! Tinnem kitem kelem, dovleant hunhunit tel ghetlem ani tem tea hatar ghalem, hat axil’lo bhutacho! Tem bobo huieli marit dhanvlem. Tacho avaz aikun bhõian mhoji sap’p gulli zali. Hanv Ram, Ram, Ram mhonnunk laglom. Ajien mhaka magir sanglem, ‘Bhutank ken’nach bhievchem nhoi. Bhutank zoxim ami bhietat toxinch bhutam amkam bhietat. Tum tankam bhiexit zalear tim tuka chodd bextaitat.’
(Revista da Casa de Goa, Série II, N.º 9, Março-Abril 2021)
